31 October 2014


Я нашел себя. Но не того.

parca-i Borges invers
parca-l un labirint care se uita in oglinda si zambeste
parca-i tu si eu si primavara

30 October 2014

mind over matter

Ходишь или сидишь, ешь или спишь, всегда наблюдай за умом, неустанно и беспрерывно.
Вот чему стоит научиться.

29 October 2014

Да чтоб Будду разорвало от Нирваны.

eternal loop theory is back
buiucani is on fire
it shouldn't be
buiucani should be calm
calm down, buiucani
you'll be blessed

Turn on, tune in, drop out.

"Turn on" meant go within to activate your neural and genetic equipment. Become sensitive to the many and various levels of consciousness and the specific triggers that engage them. Drugs were one way to accomplish this end.
"Tune in" meant interact harmoniously with the world around you - externalize, materialize, express your new internal perspectives.
"Drop out" suggested an active, selective, graceful process of detachment from involuntary or unconscious commitments. "Drop Out" meant self-reliance, a discovery of one's singularity, a commitment to mobility, choice, and change. Unhappily my explanations of this sequence of personal development were often misinterpreted to mean "Get stoned and abandon all constructive activity".

28 October 2014


The Buddhists say if you meet somebody and your heart pounds, your hands shake, your knees go weak, that’s not the one.
When you meet your ‘soul mate’ you’ll feel calm.
No anxiety, no agitation.


Dreamachine: science + magic + art

free all

The water has no fear of being disturbed,

Remind me that I am water.

The air holds all, with no distinction:

Why do I forget I am air?

Why do I relinquish the solid earth I am,

For a rootless, trembling mind?

How do I crumple all of space,

Into a fearful ball of fight?

Remind me again and again

I am that Love unshakeable

In the midst of chaos, in the madness of life,

Just remind me I Am… just remind me I Am

25 October 2014


sunetul noptii pe asfaltul inghetat

si daca dumnezeu e ateu


nu ne cunoastem
nu ne-am vazut decat in vis
si asta nu se tine
nu ne tinem
suntem liberi si independenti
si temporari
nu ne posedam
dar undeva acolo, over the rainbow
este tunelul care ne conduce unul spre altul
statia terinus - transcendenta
coridor tapitat cu dorinte si pareri de rau
vom uita

24 October 2014

act normal

story of a
the "normal" world
becoming a monk again

23 October 2014

love problems

All of our problems
exist because
some one is not loving
someone else.

It has to start with YOU.

Is there someone
you are not loving?

Are you not loved by someone?

21 October 2014

Sylvia Plath

am citit The Bell Jar acu cateva zile si tare m-a impresionat fata asta
e tare speciala naratoarea, gingasa, complexa, derutata
tare mi-a amintit de mine acu zece ani
am gasit un documentar despre Plath sa vad cat de autobiografica-i lucrarea
u e

If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.


There’s something within you that knows what to do. There is a power greater than you that knows how to take care of you without your help. All you’ve got to do is to surrender to it. Surrender your thoughts, your mind, your ego, to the current that knows the way. It will take care of you. It will take better care of you than you can ever imagine.

20 October 2014

∞ ∞ ∞

See that you create the space in which the world moves, the time in which it lasts. 
Come to realize that the world is only sand. 
You may play with it, you may walk on it, but don’t build your house there. 
There is no journey, as such. 
It may not seem so, but we are always back where we started. 
What we were in essence, and what we will be in essence, is what we are in essence.


As you go about your life, don’t give 100 percent of your attention to the external world and your mind. 
Keep some within.

19 October 2014

talmud muzical

nu ma pricep in muzica
muzica nu se pricepe in mine
we're even

18 October 2014


Si fiece por, ca o floare, se desface
Sclipeste si fotosintetizeaza
Tu esti facuta din apa si fire de stele
Nu-ti fie frica

Esti in siguranta
Aici te poate atinge doar fericirea
Ea se apropie de pleoapele tale
Si le saruta cu blandete

Si toate celulele se umplu de lumina
Ca niste mici licurici uimiti de propria lor forta
Te lipesti de tine si te imbratisezi
Apa din tine sclipeste, stelele vibreaza

17 October 2014


Tu esti toata apa
Apa buna si rea
Apa calma si tulburata

Cand vine vantul si ridica sedimentele din tine - te agiti
Izbucnesti in valuri imense si te izbesti de diguri
Strivesti tot ce-ti iese in cale
Devii de neconsolat si de neinteles

Cand gasesti impacarea si soarele – te linistesti
Masa ta blanda si limpede acopera realitatea si o mangaie
Ochii tai albastri vad lumea asa cum este ea defapt
Integra si cumpatata, transparenta

Apa din tine e agitata astazi
Starneste ganduri mlastinoase
Porneste fictiuni tragice

Cand apa va tacea, totul iti va aparea infinit
Gingasia lumii va reveni atunci cand apa din tine isi va regati transparenta

Esti o apa speriata


4 goals of human life

1. moksha (emancipation, liberation or releas)
2. dharma (virtuous, proper, moral life)
3. artha (material prosperity, income security, means of life)
4. kama (pleasure, sensuality, emotional fulfillment) 
sounds like a good 4 steps plan


What a strange day
when I found out
what I was chasing
wasn’t running.

Muddy water is best cleared by leaving it alone.

Let it die. 
Let there be a new beginning.
It’s awful. 
~Charles Bukowski

ma uit si raman rece
de toamna
de apatie
de avitaminoza
de plictis
leaving it alone is a good choice
it might leave me alone as well

16 October 2014


Nothing is built on stone; all is built on sand, but we must build as if the sand were stone.

15 October 2014

Who Are You?

I care. 
It fucking terrifies me how much I care.


14 October 2014

The Bell Jar

If you expect nothing from anybody, you’re never disappointed.
I took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart. I am, I am, I am.
The silence depressed me. It wasn't the silence of silence. It was my own silence.


When a thing’s gone, it’s gone. It’s over and done with. Let it go then! Ignore it, and comfort yourself, if you do want comforting, with the thought that you never do recover the same thing that you lose. It’s always a new thing. The moment it leaves you it’s changed.

13 October 2014


Redefine who you are
Given time to heal the scars


The universe is under no obligation to make sense to you. ~Neil de Grasse Tyson

10 October 2014

nu tot ce zboara se mananca
nu tot ce-i aur e pretios
nu tot ce te doare e de rau

09 October 2014

Goodbyes, they often come in waves.

soul ages

Mottos for each of the soul ages:

Infant: Lets not do it.

Baby: Do it right or don't do it at all.

Young: Do it my way.

Mature: Do it anyplace but here.

Old: You do what you want and I'll do what I want.

01 October 2014



People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities. Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you.
Elizabeth Gilbert